Blood not funny

Does anyone know what it is like to bleed for nearly 8 months straight? I do, and sadly nothing is getting better. I am in more pain than I think I have been in since the last time the doctor did something to my vagina. It hurts so much I want to cry. What hurts even more is the one person whom I want to come over and take care of me is the most selfish and uncaring person in the world. Saying things like sorry, wish I could help. Well helping would be coming over and sitting with me, doing it without my asking. Calling me to see if I am ok, saying goodbye at the end of a conversation, not cheating on me (whether physically or emotionally) and just being there. I did not want a boyfriend, because I did not feel like the person I was seeing was ready to be a boyfriend. He said he wanted it, actually got into a fight with me about it, and I finally caved. But I do not believe that he has the same idea of what being a boyfriend is as I do.

making out

Making out is one of my favorite things to do, not sex, not fucking, not oral stimulation, just good old fashioned making out and feeling like you dont know what you would do if you cant have that person that instant, but you cant, so you keep making out. Its wonderful, sadly it doesnt happen that often. new quote "No man or woman is worth your tears and the only one who is will never make you cry. If you love someone put their name in a circle instead of a heart because hearts can break, but circles go on forever."

Crazy Cat

Its been a while since I last posted, and I know that no one reads my blog anyway, but it helps me get some hair off my chest. Things have been a little weird lately. I feel like I am somewhat stuck in a rut, but not really. Its hard to explain. I am happy 85% of the time, which I think is a lot, but that other 15% sometimes more, I stress and and wonder exactly what I am doing, with all aspects of my life. Do I really like my job, do I really love my family and friends, should I really spend my "love life" with someone who may not like me back, and whom I may never trust? And when all is said and done, is this really my life? Probably. On another front, its April and snowing and I feel like it should be Christmas. Its certainly looking like it outside. Im going to start posting my favorite quotes and I will begin with this one:

"Gather ye rosebuds while ye may, old time is still a flying and this same flower that smiles today, tomorrow will be dying."